The days ended

Cant imagine me posting here again so soon.

I just want to remember this day that i actually lost a friend.
a friend that have been with me for 2.5 years now...
and just because we cant meet up one day, is like the bonds between us is gone.
There is this strange feeling after this happens.
Its hard to explain...
its neither a sad or happy one..
but its emotional.
I really cant believe that I actually lost a friend in life due to selfishness between both of us.
the understanding between us js cracked and it went crashing down.

I dont have much to say about this or my friend anymore.
I can say i actually gave up being the bone of this relationship
its not working and i'm lying to myself day by day.
things changes, i know, but never expect that it happens so fast
Maybe its true from the saying that, the hardest thing in life is not making money or fame...
its about keeping a good relationship with everyone.
its not an easy task.
and it does not work one way.

I feel very sorry for my friend as i feel sorry for myself.
both of us will lose a very good friend soon..and there is no holes for this to be right again.
I dont think that things can be change back where it started.
life have to go on...and its best if we both stop hurting ourselves as we hurt each other.

having so many friends in life is a good thing...but maintaining it is no easy task.
i do respect those that actually have "best" friends that never forsake them in any way.
and yes...I agree that I been a bad friend to u.
I'm sorry for it.
I'm also sorry for going against you, sry for hurting you, sry for talking bad about u, sry about not having to spend more time with u.
I am indeed very sorry.

I always tot time will resolve things, but i was wrong...it heals wounds but leave scars.
scars that will be seen by others and yourself whole life.
I dont know wat to do now besides continuing my life studying as a student.
gaining more knowledge for my future.
This have been a very meaningful event to me.
I learn a lesson. A few actually.
I tot i was smart enuf, but i wasn't.
This is still more to learn about relationships with pple.
more to unfold.
more to experience.
and more to learn from.

I js want to wish you my friend,
all the best in your future,
in ur studies,
in your relationships with pple
in your new life

Have a save journey...
Take Care
and Goodbye.

signing off
-Alex N-